Thursday, August 13, 2009

Week 9 - Understanding my body

I lost 2 more pounds today. That brings the total to 29 pounds on the scale and about 35 pounds of fat. Dan figures out how much fat I've lost by pinching certain areas every week. It's slightly awkward, but I'm happy to know that progress is being made.

This week we're increasing calories again. Dan says my weight may stay the same, but this raising and lowering of the calories makes it so that my body won't get stuck on a plateau. So I guess I'm okay with it.

He also said that pinching my hip fat, it feels like the fat is letting go there. I'm not positive I know what that means, but he said it meant that my skin will bounce back in a healthy way. Or something like that. Apparently if you lose weight too fast then your skin can't keep up. That's something I really don't want. I'd love to not have pounds of hanging skin once I'm done with this weight loss thing. That's just gross.

I took a friend with me today to the appointment and Dan talked to her about her specific needs. It was informative and it made me realize how much I've learned because I got to pitch in a bunch. Now I've got to share my knowledge and experience with my friend because she can't afford to go to Dan at the moment.

Speaking of affording... More crap medical bills. I HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE medical crap and insurance. This is the right place to complain. You know why? Because being a fat person, I don't qualify for private insurance. That's right, I weigh too much to have insurance. I have been rejected by all major private insurance carriers. Talk about a load of crap. I'm sick of trying to rely on government assistance (talk about incompetence and inadequacy), and I don't have much of a choice, what with being self-employed. Gah!

I'm so sick of being fat.


  1. Yeah, if you can avoid the skin problem, do it. It's no fun to be a size 10 and still have a big apron of skin hanging past my hoo-ha. :)

    Congrats on 35 pounds of fat--that's great!! I was getting discouraged because my weight loss has slowed down so drastically, but then my surgeon reminded me that while the scale says I've lost 108 pounds, my measurements indicate that I've lost closer to 130 pounds of fat and gained 20-25 pounds of pure muscle.

  2. I'm by no means fat, but our insurance company HATES, HATES, HATES me for all my medical problem -- although I'd imagine they'd hate Felix or Brent more... LOL XD

    -- Eepii

  3. Thanks for taking me. I am excited and terrified to start this thing. I’m sure I’ll keep bugging you about portion sizes, exercises, and moral support for my panic attacks!! I do appreciate you being willing to help me.
    Love ya

  4. I thought of something else after I posted my first comment. Do you realize that fat people are the only discriminated against population that doesn’t have some sort of protection? In other words, you cannot sue the lame insurance companies that deny you.
    Normal weight people don’t have a clue what it’s like. Here is what it’s like to be fat..imagine this. You are stared at or ignored. If you eat anything at all, people look at you like..yep, that’s why your fat!! Your clothes cost twice as much and last half as long! You have to size up a chair before you sit down so you don’t embarrass yourself if you don’t fit. Your energy level sucks because you are basically carrying around an extra person with you all day long!! (Two extra people if we’re talking super models)
    You have to listen to thin people say stupid things like “I had two MnMs..I’m sooo bloated”. Your legs rub together when you walk. ( that’s why fat people don’t’s not that we can’t we just don’t want to catch fire between our legs!). You walk into Victoria Secret and they ask you if you’re lost. OH YA, being fat is tons of fun!

  5. Ethan - Brent is the worst because he's diabetic. Even if he had been insured by the same company for 20 years, they still would have dropped him the moment he was diagnosed as a diabetic. Stupid. The only people who can get insurance are the ones who don't need it.

    Brent or I will have to get a job that offers group insurance or we will never be covered. There are no other options for us. And yeah, total discrimination Tawna.

    Brandi - you may have extra skin hanging, but you're still doing exactly what your body needs to get to where you need to go. Your skin might still catch up, right? I mean, it's not like you don't exercise or eat right now. You're a total inspiration!

    Tawna - happy to have you along for the ride. Seriously. :)

  6. I am totally inspired and totally jealous, Heather. I don't have as much weight to lose as you, so I can only imagine what you're going through, how difficult it is, or how great it feels knowing you've lost 30 pounds!

    What a triumph! YOU ROCK!